Since you don't have an academic position (that I know of), you can't
ease the pain of being challenging and therefore misunderstood (who
makes any real effort to understand anything anymore unless there's
money in it, anyway?) by being able to say, "Well, my colleagues at
the University respect me, and in music generally, and my students
are winning awards and getting into great music programs blah blah
You have to swallow that pain whole, and then spend a great deal of
time earning a living doing something (again, I am assuming this is
so) that is not related to your passion.
You've chosen a hard road. Given that you refuse to compromise your
aesthetic and intellectual standards, I respect you.
advice from me) be proud of yourself.
And above all, keep doing it because you enjoy doing it. That's what
Andrew, Of course I take your points, which are very well taken indeed,
and I agree with much of what you say. But, being as unable to agree
with anyone completely on anything as you are, I must point out that