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jammed into incorrect position. It is easy for him to relax into sensible
routines while on a plane - the little articles and essays he writes
for his living, the stray communiqués he exchanges with his benefactors
(for some who are rich and idle enough to get swept up in religious
ardor believe him to be some sort of prophet or cosmic being, and
he is not about to disabuse them of the notion, especially as their
donations pay for his travels).
But trains - trains are a different matter. Each trip he takes by
train is by turns joyous and sorrowful, as he sees the jagged cityscapes
unfurl, an entire valley squirting past his view within instants,
the face of a random person on a platform preserved as a blurred snapshot
in memory. So many places to see, and he will never see all of them,
never gain more than a glimpse. Those who travel only once a twice
or year have come to terms with this fact; they accept that only a
fraction of what fills their field of
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view will be consigned to the known. And here he is, with more time
and more inclination and more freedom to see all that there is, laid
bare before him in untrammeled daylight, and it all amounts to a pittance.
A caterpillar dreams of soaring as a butterfly, and yet a butterfly
dreams too, of lands beyond its circumscribed area of existence, and
neither gets what each wants.
Still, there are moments where witnessing the world outside can bring
him close to tears. Once he was aboard a train just leaving a station,
still moving slowly enough for him to see the details of the town
he was leaving behind, and he witnessed a mother and son walking in
the opposite direction down the platform, her hand mussing his hair
as they exchanged loud laughs, their merged shadow lengthened by the
late afternoon, granted the scale of a mountain peak. There was no
one else on the platform to interfere with this sight, and the shadow
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