". . . the disembodiment of reality . . . the rupture that seems determined
to multiply itself between things and the feelings they produce in
our minds . . ." - Artaud
What a crazy reason for going crazy. Here's a physical state for you:
in this intimate setting, someone has just said, "I love you."
A weakness in the
muscles, a curtain drawn across the senses. The other is not the other,
but a source of disbelief. Arms, having their own volition, open.
A quick sensation of falling; pleasant. Pressure felt on the skin
is sought, maintained, to relieve and match the expected sensory image
occurring in the mind before actual contract. Thought is banished;
words no longer exist. A sensation localized behind the eyes shifts
to the lips, to changing portions of the surface. The mind is here
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presents to the brain a sensation of tingling that grows until it
delimits the whole body. The instantaneous ordering of things in the
mind shifts both in logic and emotion. It reforms anew. Yet there
is a constancy underneath:
Physical states where
the real is most directly experienced, where words, classifications,
order are set aside - states that unexpected words may trigger.
Jerry Sexton is a student in the MFA program in Creative Writing
at San Jose State University in San Jose, California, and has published
in a variety of literary magazines.
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